Friday, June 30, 2006

I hate myself for needing this,
I love our twisted little mess.
I know it's wrong but it just feel right,
The taste of tears is bittersweet tonight.


Damnit. Right after withdrew the emo streak in me, Nsync- This I Promise You, just HAD to play. Blah, the whole week's been straightfoward useless.

I've got nothing to blog about. School sucks, it seemed like bedtime every lesson. And I hate it when I can't keep up with the boring droning. My wonderful teacher had already implied that I'm not up to the 'O' Levels, that I'm gonna stay back, and rot away, die happily, R.I.P. Yeah, I suppose so, huh. They should just shoot them teachers before they shoot our souls.

I just found out something worrying about my health. Aashdkjasd. It's killing me.

And this lousy feeling inside of me doesn't make things better. I'mma well disappear from this world, lest I be an eyesore to everyone.

I hate the way I operate right now. Grr. Go away.

Monday, June 26, 2006

No one's ever turned you over.
No one's tried,
To ever let you down.

Start of term 3, and once again, we take turns to repeat our desire to hit the books.

Happy birthday, Mummy! <3
You're the greatest mum, ever. No matter how many times we quarrel, all those harsh words, and everything else, it all don't matter much, do they? I'd just like you to know.. I love you! <3

Well, I'll go flip through the past again and update, before I leave this online diary of mine to rust for a week. I'll try and cover as much as I could, cause for one reason or another, I see no point in logging in, at least till the week ends.

Went shopping with Junle, Sarah and Jane on Friday. (: It was really nice of them to tag along and help us choose what to buy. I must be feeling pretty rich then, even with nothing much left in my wallet. Bough a shirt, a belt, along with a debt that I'll find hard to pay back. At least, Junle wouldn't come after me, hoho. And thank you, Jane! For that really pretty gift you made for us. I love it a lot, it's on display in my cupboard now! (:

The events really worth remembering are not that many. There's the creation of this layout, a masterpiece from Tingzhi. (: Oh yes, and south's visit to sentosa.

Left my godparent's house in the afternoon, and went over to sentosa to meet up with south. I thought I was late, about an hour or so, but heh. Everyone was all over the place, and when we finally met up, the sky wasn't in too good a mood, and as the rain poured, the girls hid under some broken-down umbrella, while us guys thoroughly enjoyed themselves thrashing one team and losing to another in beach soccer. Not surprisingly, the rough sand bruised my foot, and the seawater gleefully inflicted its salt content onto it. Other than soccer, the other thing that's still fresh in my mind was the capturing of Anna Beth and dumping her into the sea. Bathed and went off to meet Tingzhi! We patronised PS's Gelare for the evening, and since it was my first time there and the menu's confusing to the point when the only thing that swirled around me was ice cream, I gladly invited Tingzhi to order first. :D And.. I just repeated what she said. Yes, it's always the girls who know best. Ice cream came, and I'd say that the entire evening was a perfect ending to an otherwise draining session at Sentosa. Yes, we talked & talked & talked, till a silent clock chimed 9, and we both went back home. Thanks for your wonderful company too, penguinnnn. (:

Sunday soon came, as night swept by swiftly. In the end, I couldn't attend church again, due to the rain that came at the most inappropriate of times. Had a heart-to-heart talk with Mum, about how I felt about my situation as well as that of the family's, and most of what I spoke was something I didn't think I would have spoken. Well, it came fine, ultimately. Mum allowed me to go for Marche, so I met up with Junle in the afternoon, while Jeff came shortly later. A short session of LAN, another at Nike, before the whole of South ended up in a small corner of Marche. The food did the talking, and yeah. All I can say now's that I'll miss everyone, and certain people's company so damn badly. ):

Yeah, enough talk. I can't shape my sentences properly now, forgive me but I'm drained from playing basketball today. Succeeded in a challenge I set for myself, while Junle and Jethro played along. In short, today was great. In a way, the company of two of closest friends beats just about everything.

Oh yes, I'm 171cm tall now! :D And in case you're wondering, YES, I'M TALL. (:

Speaking of which, Eve and Ethel's back. Yes, I miss talking to them so much. And they're speaking to me only nowww! ): Haha, welcome back! Both of you were missed badly while you're gone. (:

The start of the new term speaks for itself. The decision to release most of the knots in my heart was a hard one, as it always feels when I give up something I once adored. But some knots are still kept, and even tightened. These knots are certain people that I'd keep tied to my life, as I continue to move on in what's the final stretch of secondary school life.

Replies to tags:

Nicolette & Sandy & Liyun & Wendy & Talleah:
Hey there, I love this layout too. A penguin did it for me. Haha, talk to you guys soon. (:

Felicia: Haha, hello! I heard you're not in Singapore anymore. ): If only we can talk now, about the past and all. Haha, oh well. Don't worry, I changed your link. (:

Deborah: I see you tooo. Haha, I'll see you everytime I blog now, and I'll giggle to myself. :D Oh, and imagine a penguin in a gown.

Sandy: I'm not dao, I always talk to you! (: And yes, it's a song!

Bettie: Haha, of course I won't forget my first love. By the way, I realise I don't have your contact!

Junle: Haha, I'm used to typing his name that way. :D

Penguin: Come back soon, you're like a thousand miles away. ):


Right, Round 3 with school begins tomorrow. It's pretty much the deciding round, I'd either collapse for the final round, or leave with dignity and pride. I can't say for now, but hell. We'll see, won't we?

Beautiful girl,
Bless your heart.


And as you traced your steps back, another set of prints lay hidden under dust and crimson leaves.

Thursday, June 22, 2006

Hello, fellow penguin (:
I'm trying to find that penguin picture to post it here but somehow it won't work. omg okay! I found this small penguin picture. It's less than 1cm tall hahaha. & you know I can't stop looking at the layout, the penguins are so damn cute :D

Spent the whole day home today moping around and well mainly chatting on msn. we er named the penguins. (: I told debra which one she is though and she said the penguins were quite cute ONLY. pffft. and hansheng's tempting me with ice cream nowwwwww. Haha gelare sure sounds good, doesn't it? the nearest one's about 5 mins walk from my house, be envious, fellow penguin. :P

South United! hansheng screaming infidelities says:
haha okay i feel like a little kid again.

Haha I'm sorry that had to go up whats newwww :D okay its not exactly bad to be a kid, isn't it? Better than being an adult and going all moody and grumpy ))): I want ice cream (: okay my mum's out I'll ask her to buy it for me on the way back :D

Hmmm the pos song just started playing on my iTunes D; sure brings back memories, doesnt it? Okay how random. I think I'll stop here.
Bye(:
can you tell its a penguin?!! hahaha

To Tingzhi:

Hello, penguin! Thank you for the awesomest and cutest skin, ever. I'm typing this note out to tell you how much I appreciate your effort, and that we shall live in an igloo together in the future with the rest of South!

Haha, I'm so touched now.
I promise I'd try my best not to laugh whenever I see the penguins. :D

Thank you! <3

Wednesday, June 21, 2006

The traffic's backed for miles,
On this quiet suburban roads.
While the rubber necking strangers,
Are dying to see this victim's wounds.


Gone's the lovelorn-ess, back is the angst and the numbness.

Nah, I'll still be the same 'ol me, just that no traces of the previous deliberate stains would remain. Cocoons are spun to diverge ourselves away from the real world, but they tear eventually.

And butterflies wings emerge, ready to battle the hurt of this world.

So I've seen the old cocoon in tatters, and thus deciding that everyone must move on one day, even humans. Went to pick up Tingzhi with Deb and Jeff, and despite the short time Deb was with us, I still think partner's one of the best company you can ever have. We waited and waited, before Tingzhi finally appeared, and ran towards Deb, before giving us one of her usual smiles. Proceeded to macs, before we ended up chatting. I actually realise how easy it is for me to communicate with Tingzhi- maybe it's her smiles that always colour our days. After Deb left, we had the conversation I classify as the 'lovesick conversation'. We then waited for Chevy to touch down, while Hendy, Sarah and Steph came. After Tingzhi had to go off, Jeff and I decided to head off to Dhoby Gault to have one of our rare 'brothers' trip. Played pool, and the arcade, as well as getting guitar strings. But what highlighted this day beside the return of Tingzhi and Chevy was how Jeff and I manage to talk and confided in each other. Well, it's not bad a day, considering how it started with a major quarrel with Dad and all.

Emo songs reign first once again on my playlist. Not those crappy love songs that make you sniff and cry, but those songs that burn inside of you..

And the water remained crystal clear, still and unwavering.

Tuesday, June 20, 2006

Half-smoked cigarettes,
And you're the thrash that infests my sheets.


An entire month swung by, just like that. With it came the destined traps and tresures, much like those in our video game consoles. Being the fool that you are, you've painstakingly survived through the jaws and clamps, only to find the last and the sharpest edges of them all faces you in the face. Just a few steps away, you see the beautiful face of the princess you've come to rescue. As you pluck up the remaining of your courage and stepped into the final hurdle..

Bang.

And a bullet pierced right through your heart.

After the countless jumping and dodging of the different sticks and stones hurled at you, who would have seen the bullet coming?

Yes, I've been thinking. This June holidays, the part of me that faced the world was one who was frequently hiding away from the harsh reality. Running and hiding, time whizzed past me so fast, that if not of the calendar, I'd still be trapped beyond the cocoon of time and space.

I'm too lazy to recall the past days' events. Let's just say I miss the people overseas, and the company I had these days was awesome. But however splendid a day might be, too much thoughts and a little silence kills it off. Five more days, I'll just let my thoughts run wild a little more.

Before I gather them back, and get on with life.

Hendy: Don't worry, buddy. Things might seem to be take out of a movie but hey, don't movies all have happy endings? (:

Jeffrey: Yes, yes, yeeees. JeffRey. I can't change the way I type your name, it's been JeffEry since Secondary Three. (x

Junle: Hey, I didn't forget you! Your name's there! I can't wait to tackle the books and shoot hoops right now. (:

Bryant, Nicky: I miss both of you right now, my darlings. Come back soon, yeah?


And so, it ends with a gunshot.

Monday, June 19, 2006

Four people I'd like to thank right now.
Anna & Junle & Jeffery & Fiona.

For being the best cell group leader/member and friend to me.

Friday, June 16, 2006

When you answer the door, pick up the phone,
You won't find me,
Cause I'm not coming home.


Okay, damn. I spent today at home sms-ing and listening to freaking emo songs, so I'm like so damn emo now, I want to rant. ):

Letting go isn't easy, it never was. Circumstances force people to change; a freak wind may blow suddenly and switch the direction of your heart. Insisting that something be created out of nothing is but the worst/dumbest decision I could have made, but it just happens that everyone's a fool at some point of time. When you realise you have to leave, it's useless to overstay your welcome. I'm leaving. This very minute. And I wouldn't turn back, but hell, will you even ask me to?

Ah yeah, yawn. I just had dinner and I've a feeling emo songs aren't quite done with running circles round my head yet. Oh well, I reckon I might at well log in and blog.

Went to KAP to study again with south yesterday. Took quite awhile to get there, I was half awake in the bus and I went past my supposed destination without me realising it. So by the time I reached there, no one was in the mood for studying. Nail painting/polishing, whatever you call it, was the latest trend to hit KAP that day, and most of them went back home with pretty nails. So we went to esplanade with Bryant since he had Bible study, walked through the millennium walk, before ending up in Carl's Junior. Time crawled by slowly before Tingzhi, Keenan and I decide to head down to Cine to catch a performance we were to miss in the end. But we managed to catch a movie with Kenneth together, R.V- Runaway Vacation. Keenan and I were like, deciding to catch Silent Hill, and Tingzhi was damn scared. Cine didn't have the time slot we wanted, so when we decided to walk over to Lido, Tingzhi came up with the phrase that tickled me hell badly.

" Lido is haunted! ): "

Then I was laughing and laughing and laughing & she had this annoyed look on her face. Lido and PS both didn't have the time slots in the end, so we watched R.V. And Tingzhi was relieved and yes, end of story. Oh, yesterday was both interesting and fun, yes it was. (:

On the contrary, today was a beautiful day wasted away. The only thing that made today worth remembering is how I actually sms-ed the entire afternoon, a feat I had never acheived.

It's a friday, which means the weekend looms ahead. Which also means I'll have to rack my brains for another way to escape Prison Redhill to get to cell group and church. I've got an IDEA already. I feel evil. Heh.

And ah, okay, I'm not saying my english's bad. Neither is it good. I blog whenever I have inspirations to, and I can't blog under pressure to blog good english. You know, sometimes, we just want to be a kid and whine uncatchable phrases. So abandon that thought of good english over here, or withstand the risk of a shock when I blog like a kid next time. (x

Partner! I just read your blog, and saw what you wrote. I can't believe you actually thought of writing that down, it's like, so sweet of you. Ahh, you know I want to talk to you badly, just that I don't have a chance to. And since we're both grounded, it makes things even harder. Hope you're doing fine with your own side of problems, I'll be your listening ear too, if you ever need me. <3

Tingzhi's leaving for Penang, so.. Have a safe journey, cheer up, and have fun! (:

Replies to tags:

Nicolette: See you on sunday! (:

Fiona: Hello! I've got much to tell you, I hope I can go for cell and church! ):

Rachel: Hello! Yes, of course I do! We played basketball together!

Talleah: One! Haha, this is my first blog, and my last. (:

Tingzhi: Haha, I want my skin! And we went way past 10 sentences. (:

Jane: Hey! I didn't do much but glad to hear that anyway! Cheer up and keep smiling!

Anonymous: It's a song from The Ataris - The Saddest Song. It's the acoustic version, though. Oh, and you're the first anonymous I've had in ages, cool.

Seraphina: Haha, it isn't? But it's still pretty cool, and we had fun there too!

Liyun: Hey thanks. I'm okay. (: And my english's not perfect. I try to be, for myself and my readers.

Bryant: Our kids will prank on her! Hahaha.

Hendy: Yeah, I miss south too. And you. (:

Wendy: Hey! Thanks. Haha, you live near GESPS? And what's your url?

Bettie: Haha, thank you! I don't have your contact, you know? ): And what first love! Haha. (x

Felicia (aka RY): Haha, everyone misses me I know. Haha, kidding. I'm sorry I didn't come today! (:

Tingzhi: Haha, I did. But you left already. Oh well, see you on Wednesday. (:

Tuesday, June 13, 2006

Break now, and cease all feelings.
Burn now, what once was breathing.
Reach out, and you may take my heart away.


13th June was a day spent at home, dedicated to the virtual world.

So I decided to try and come up with a brand new blogskin and.. I gave up halfway. MSN Messenger was the usual company, while Football Manager's currently the #1 entertainment there is. Watched a couple of episodes of Kenshin, while the sun dragged itself unwillingly across the sky. Yeah, dawn soon turned into dusk. Just like that. :D

Been reading blogs, and having the usual chats with people these days. For some reasons, the 'hot' topic, or the one topic that pops up every now and then is one about friendship. Well, I missed the one session of cell group that talked about friends, but the pieces I gathered from people here and there were enough to actually kick-start my motionless thoughts. What we've experienced throughout life, the people we've met, people we've interacted with. There are but a selected few we can actually trust and pour out everything to. I'm starting to realise more and more about the un-truths of this world, how some people aren't always true. But the heart is given to us not just to love, it's a detector of the purity of another heart. Sometimes, we just have to listen and view through the lenses, identify the people that walk in and out of our lives. Someone told me that we have to grab the golden opportunity that comes our way or we'd live to regret it. I say, grab the sincere friends that enter our lives, and leave the rest as it is.

And such friends, they walk through life with us, side by side. (:

Looking back, I was pretty emo when I viewed the world as an entire globe of oscar-winning acting, where the prettiest faces you see around are those of new-born babies. I still feel the same way, but I've learnt to see it in a positive frame. In this run-down world, the glitters of life are our family and friends. A family, spirtual or blood related, and the friends that our hearts yell their yearnings for.

Oh well, back to my oh so boring life. It's been long since I pay a visit to the dear old gym, and I can't wait to feel the stretch of my muscles again. My 4th gold is back for the taking, thanks to maybe gym-ing, or POS. From four pull ups, to ten, I can't wait to show Mr Arul my new found strength. Hoho, the next minute, you might even see me joining the X-men. Extraordinary strength, bring on the Beast anytime. (x Anyway, I haven't touch a ball since Sports Fiesta, both soccer and basketball. I want to plaaaay.

The usual people from GESPS are finally planning a trip out for the June holidays. Sentosa on Friday! Four years and counting, we're still keeping in contact, and we never fail to see one another during the holidays. And these are friends I'm gonna hold on to. Oh man, I can't wait for friday. And tomorrow's prayer meeting with cell group at Jiayu's house, before studying at KAP! I'm gonna show Hendy my shorten-ed hair, and talk to Junle and Bryant!

My earhole's hurting more and more, and my eyelids are getting heavier by the moment. World Cup's addictive. Oh, did I mention Rosicky's on fire now? Hot stuff right now, pity Arsenal got him already. ):

Oh, speaking of which. I almost forgot. Yesterday's trip to Seraphina's was nothing I had in mind. It was entertainment in a different sort of way. Her house's damn empty, just a bed and freezing air-conditioning. Reached there at around five, and took a short nap under the desk. Played the guitar and the monopoly before the rest came one by one. I got to know more about the dancers, like Bettie and Felicia and the rest! And they kept saying I sound/behave like a little boy, but I so do not. I still think Felicia's scary, but she's really nice if she actually talks to you. Bettie and Seraphina are fun people to be with, except the splitting part which grossed me out. I always think of splitting as form of abusing yourself, heh. True okaaaay. It hurts. Anyway, we had pizza before heading back home with Bryant, Hendy and Louisa. Speaking of Louisa, she looks more and more like a kid these days. Especially in clothes she wears at home. Reached home before eleven, so once again, there wasn't any storm to endure at home. As always, switched on the TV for world cup and had a short chat with Sarah over the phone. Before she drifted off to sleep. (:

Okay, special request from dearest Nicolette Ng Zining who wanted to see her beautiful name. Helloooo. Aren't you touched to see this? I know you love me, you don't have to declare that to the whole world. Haha, talk to you sooooon. (x

Okay, I think that's all. I hope tomorrow'd be fun! (And productive- I need something to convince Mum to let me go for Sunday's service.) Alright, farewell. For now. :D

Replies to tags:

Qixin: Mummy! I miss you! It's halfway through the holidays, we HAVE to meet up!

Bryant: Haha aww, darling. ): Don't worry, you will never be lonely with me around! (: And linked!

Hendy: Hendy!!!

Liyun: Hey ya! Haha, don't get shocked by what I blog about, it's pretty depressing stuff most of the time. Linked!

Felicia: Ehhh! I'm not scared! It's just that the place was really quiet and dark okay! And I'll protect everyone, I'm not scaredddd. Linked, scary girl!

Deborah: Haha, I'm a regular visitor to your blog! Hope to see you soon, and cycle or something, partnerrr. :D

Sarah: For the hundredth time, my english's not good! You spotted enough mistakes to prove that! Haha, english teacher!

Anna Beth: Hello, girrrl. Get well soon!

Hendy: You're not alone, you've got me! (:

Monday, June 12, 2006

And I swear,
I'll be there.
Anytime you want me to.


It's a monday afternoon. :D

Anyway, was supposed to be heading to Seraphina's house, but I felt like staying put at home since my darlings aren't going. And darling Bryant and the rest are studying at KAP, so yeah, I'm left alone. ): But it's okay, since Sarah spotted my horrible eyebags and I prefer to hide at home now, yaye. Felicia's calling to chase me out of the house, but Westlife's doing well in keeping me stuck with depressing love songs.

Reason for the eyebags are due to consistent world cup viewings! Jethro, Steven and Khoon crashed over on Saturday, and Steven came again yesterday. 9pm to 5am of non-stop soccer, with some Worms Armageddon, Macs Delivery, and plenty of coffee in between. It was great fun, like always, since soccer is involved. And yeah, thanks Dad for the scv, installed just in time on the eve of the World Cup. (:

Church was one word, sleepy, on sunday. I couldn't stop myself from shutting my eyes during the first past of the sermon when Pastor repeated a message from Emerge, but somehow, I managed to perk up for the second part. It was snowing inside Hall 1 but I assure you it wasn't winter wonderland. I was practially freezing, and I had my jacket on, despite my long sleeves shirt. Followed them over to east-coast, and had some guys talk with Junle and Jeff, where we reassured ourselves of our love towards one another. Okay, kidding, but yeah. Talked about hell lot of stuff, all the way there, and to town. Which was like, two hours and or something. Played some arcade at PS before Steph and Sarah joined us, and to keep things short, met up with the rest at Taka for Pepper Lunch. No, it was dinner by then, but anyway. Ate with Hendy and Junle! Hugged everyone and went back home with Deborah and Jeff. For once, I strolled back cause I wasn't out too late.

I'll be true,
Here for you.

Don't leave me lonely,
Cause I need you.


And now, I'm talking to Tingzhi online and she's forever smiling and laughing at whatever I say. In a good way, she says. Haha. :D

Replies to tags:

Deborah: Haha, I posted again, grounded partner! Your turnnnn.

Bryant: Don't cry! I'm touched to have you and south! (:

Felicia: Eh shhhh. I wasn't scared okay. I was just.. covering my ears. (x

Tingzhi: It's not good, the posts are just emo! Okay okay, you were just hidinggg. (x Haha, linked. 10 sentences, our pact!

Deborah: Three hours wouldn't help much, you should ask for five! Haha, ni de hua wen hen hao! xD

Talleah: Hello! I didn't know you visit my blog. (: Oh, that's because I haven't updated for a long time.

Beitris: Ehhhh. You just said okay the other day. I don't care, before school reopens. (:

Wednesday, June 07, 2006

No more sleepless nights alone,
This bed is better without you.
No more waiting up for calls,
I've got nothing left to say to you.


Let's head back to when the chinese 'O' Levels took place, shall we?

I haven't got much to talk about the chinese paper, except that I feel that it was pretty easy, and I don't see anything less than an A2. Not that I think my chinese's good, it's just that the paper was easy. Well, Beitris told me some answers after the paper and it sorta didn't match the ones I had in mind, but hell. Speaking of Beitris, note to take: I owe her a treat at NYDC. (:

Hmm, next's probably the whole stretch of POS activities. If I hadn't remembered wrongly, the last time I wrote about POS was when we crashed Bryant's place and I was feeling great about POS. What came after was nothing you could imagine. The following trainings hit us like a freight train, full force, right at the head. People were crying, people were frowning, you couldn't trace any colours in the otherwise greyish moods of the people in POS. It was just, last minute like everyone said. The preview was screwed up, yet no one really cared to perfect it. Or maybe, it's just that no one felt we could do it anymore. In other words, we were down in the dumps, discouraged, what flashed across was only to put up an average performance and not drown in embarassment.

The last day turned everything around. The prayer meeting was in fact, our one way ticket to victory. Spirits were raised when out voices and hearts joined in prayer, asking God to take us through the last lap of this race. Amazing, huh? What came after that were hard work after hard work. Tears flowed through even, when Anna Beth couldn't perform her once beautiful pop twist. And Junxiong were so dejected, you could sense heartache from a distance. But they came together in the end, and the three of them, Anna Beth, Junxiong and Chuanyu came up with so amazing a pop twist during the actual performance. The stretch of road leading to the stage after that were a bunch of nerves. I was so afraid I couldn't pop or catch Sarah and Vanessa in front of a crowd rumoured to be around 10,000. But as all POS people know, we did it, perfectly, no front support, nothing at all. Ah, and right after Steph did the pyramid, we ran off, yelling and jumping in joy. Sheer pleasure made me hug everyone in sight, people like Junle who came though this with me, Jeff who brought me here, Hendy who never fails to listen and gives the warmest hug. Running over to Hall7, we celebrated like we had won. And everyone was so cheerful, previous unwanted memories were erased.

Thus, Emerge 06' took off on a bright start. I should say, this conference was my first time crying and kneeling in the presence of God, as I thought about how He had brought me through not just POS but 16 full years. You see, I had immense parents objection, which rose when I returned home late after every training, and I was to endure much torture. But God came through for me, and right after POS, everything was worth it. I looked back when I first knew God, it was when some people knocked on our door and offered to give me Bible study. I went over to Heart of God Church after Mum came to know of free tuition, yes, don't laugh. Funny how this long journey through life led to me in City Harvest Church now, and I never imagined myself up on stage performing with such dear friends in front of a crowd roaring with pleasure. The last day of Emerge, emotions took over and I just teared silently. And as the friendship song came on, I looked to my side and saw every single of you guys. I wonder, how blessed am I?

Yes, we won POS! As well as being the overall champions for the clusters! As all the results were announced onstage, our hearts jumped together as we each held hands and prayed for favor in the Lord. As east and south battled for top glory, the final result swinged the trophy into our hands as we extended our lead over them. The trophy, I've never held anything like that, was one I had dreamt of since I was a boy. Strange how it wasn't related to any sport, but cheerleading. I thought back to how Liverpool won the Champions League last year, and I kissed the trophy like how Gerrad did that day. Sweet, I'll say. Pure gold, you can even see your own reflection. So we celebrated like we had never celebrate before, and a pity I couldn't go for dinner that day but ah. That trophy was filling enough.

Yesterday was a party for everyone from south! Crashed at Anna Beth's house and we played games. Actually, I knew what was coming already. To sum the first two games up, we tried to burst balloons and sumo-wrestled. And not forgetting getting ourselves all muddy and dirty. The last game as usual, though common, was really fun. Within a minute, everyone was wet thoroughly as water bombs whizzed all over the place. Anna Beth was the guys sole target but we managed to throw Deborah and Tingzhi into the pool. It was the best fun I had in ages, before the security came. Oh man, I tell you, it was a joke. No matter how hard he tried, he couldn't match every word we threw back at him, and he even came up with an imaginary 1970 rule book that said water bombs weren't allowed. Well, we were in the wrong for being sarcastic after he left, but I felt we did enough by cleaning up the whole place after that.

Bathed, and went back the host's place all warm and clean. Pastamania would have blush should they taste the food we had there. The sauce was heavenly, and pity we could only have a plate each for our lateness. Played a 'lights out' hide and seek game with Jeff and Chuanyu being the entertainers, and I tell you, it was funny. Oh, and Tingzhi had this really scared look as she hid being the door for fear of being caught and Louisa, the little eighteen year old 'kid' hid behind some fridge. She's super cute, I tell you. She was like sniffing and saying, "You played cheat! They guided you here, and this is the best hiding place okay!". Aww, everyone gave in to her after that. Then came the part which I loathe, ghost stories. What's worse, the lights were all off when they told their super scary stories. I shutted my ears 3/4 of the time okay. Headed home around half past ten with Felicia (scary girl), Talleah, Kenneth, Keenan and Pengbo after bidding Lousia and Vanessa goodbye, and reached home around eleven. Stayed up till around two, talked to Vanessa over the phone for a while before I finally hit the sack.

So tell me, is this fun or what?

Alright, I guessed I updated enough. I'll write everyone a short note the next time I come online to blog. Like I always do. (:

Replies to tags:

Junle: Haha, yeah, you're the closest guy to my heart, since I see you almost everyday. Enjoy your camp and come back soon.

Sandy: He's not. It's called brotherly love!

Jane: Everything's fine now. Well, sort of. I think you're in chalet right? See you in church! Yeap, and linked!

Eve: Haha hey you. You're imagining things, I'm sorry about that day okay? I know you care, sweets. Bring back a penguin for me! (:

Deborah: The big day's over, and we won! Haha. You're my grounded mate. Linked!

Bryant: What are you talking about, we're darlings! (: Haha, that is, if you still want me. Love you too. (:

Felicia: Haha, guys don't blog. It's not about good english, it's about emo posts. (: Haha, see you soon, scary girl!

Sunday, June 04, 2006

It's overshadowed by the shadows of your subconscious actions.
At least, I still believe it is.

Saturday, June 03, 2006

Okay, like always, I'm turning to penning out every single word weighing down my heart since I've no one to turn to right now. Call me lonely, but sometimes, there are moments when you realise you have to be alone. And sort out your thoughts. I'm not gonna paragraph this post, neither am I posting down lyrics cause the main reason behind this is to dump every piece of thrash out, whatever I feel is appropriate here. So emerge has started, and I missed the 2nd day when Anna had her basketball finals which I heard she lost, ): and Chuanyu had his arm wrestling thing which he advanced to the finals and thrashed the other guy silly today, while I heard that I looked weird on-screen when they showed my face for the essay writing finals and yeah, basically everything interesting happened. Like they always do when I'm absent, oh cruelty. Been crying lately, the latest credit to Steph's words that made me tear really badly. Okay, I wonder if I'll last through the whole of June, having to dodge Mum's attacks on me, while invisible blows happen to slam at my heart at will recently. To be honest, this POS brough about enough mood changes in me, one moment, the people in them make me feel so blessed and touched, the other moment, ugly facces appear threatening to tear apart the beautiful potrait. Like a single leave stranded on the waves of the ocean, it had been a bumpy ride, and I can safely say that it'd take more than weeks for my heart to stop thumping wildly. I can never describe the emotions that had taken over me these days, it's impossible. Torn between cell group and POS, more stuff had taken place, namely lots of friendships problems when I had to myself to blame for being too naive, or my rushing into things. The increasingly straining relationship with mum is starting to go overboard, it's either she break soon, or I break soon. What more, you ask. Like they say, it never rains but pours. Like every sane teeanger, I'm facing the usual dead ends of cruel love and strained finances. Overloaded, I'll say, but that's how the earth spins. It doesn't wait for you. It never will.

Ah. I got everything out. (:

Thursday, June 01, 2006

From the first day of POS to the final one, we've gone a long way. This un-erasable journey in my life, I can never forget, and I'll blog the best I can soon. Soon as in, right after we get announced as champions. :D

For now, south cluster, let's immerse in sweet joy after our countless, bitter trainings. (:

PS. South cluster people, I need numbers, msn, contacts, whatever. So long as you're in south, please please please, we've got to stay in contact! Cause I'd miss everyone. ):